It’s finally starting to feel real as I write my 30 week pregnancy update. It’s so hard not to wish the time away. All those months I tried to conceive and all those tears over negative ovulation and pregnancy tests and now I’m weeks away from meeting the next addition to the family. CRAZY
I’ve been feeling really emotional and almost a little depressed this week. I think the main cause of this is that last weekend was Logan’s weekend with his dad and so its been about 9 days since I’ve seen him and I miss his little motor mouth and crooked teeth like mad. I think it bothers me more than I realise. Logan’s dad also text me to tell me that Logs didn’t pass his Stage 4 swimming on Saturday morning and all I wanted to do was be there for him, tell him it’d be ok and he’d smash it next time. Anyway, the trials of co-parenting is not something I want to write about here and now.
Since reaching 30 weeks I definitely feel like my body has picked the pace up and I’m experiencing many symptoms again. Looking closely at my arm I can see the scales of dry skin, it doesn’t seem to matter how much I moisturise. Sleeping is becoming nigh on impossible with restless legs and needing to wee every couple of hours. Matt said I let out the biggest snore last night he thought I was choking! No matter which side I lie on, I always seem to end up on my back and this makes me snore…..apparently.
By the time I reach the end of being 30 weeks pregnant I’ll be on maternity leave. I know it’s incredibly early to start maternity leave but I’m struggling big time. Prior to writing this post I spent around three hours solid comparing two spreadsheets full of numbers and dates. It makes my head ache and my eyes go all loopy! I’m hoping a week or two of downtime will do me the world of good and I can start to feel excited for baby girls arrival as I’ve been lacking motivation to do pretty much anything and that includes sorting out the baby’s clothes. I have started washing some of the newborn items as I will need these to finish off the hospital bag but basically I’m just feeling a bit blaaaaah and like I want to stay in bed all day.
My appetite is just going mad. I’m hungry every hour, from when I wake up, until around 6pm when I have my dinner. My favourite dinners are the carb heavy ones. Fruit and veg just doesn’t do it for me but I do have some at least a couple of times a day.
I basically feel like I’m back in the first trimester again; the tiredness, the constant eating, the queasy feeling, the ‘can’t be arsed’ attitude….
I could carry on moaning but I think you all get the picture!
**TMI warning** This morning I may have lost some of my mucus plug. I went to the toilet and wiped away a large (about the size of a 1p piece) lump of mucus. Thankfully there were no signs of blood so it could easily have been just your everyday discharge (hate that word) – but it was the most I’ve seen this pregnancy and I’ve since been experiencing back ache. It made me wonder whether little lady has had a shift down the birth canal and engaged today….I was almost at the point of calling the midwife but after a bit of surfing on the web I didn’t think there was much she would do unless I had some other signs of labour or pains etc. I’ll keep an eye on it and perhaps take a bath later.
All in all I’ll be glad to see the back of 30 weeks. If this baby is as early as Florence I only have about 8 weeks and 6 days to go. Please be early baby, I want to say hello!
I’m seeing the midwife next week so will have some more clinical updates for you rather than just my ranting!
If you missed my last pregnancy update you can read all about it here.